I have been reconnecting to my spiritual self again, after a long hiatus. My children are 3 and 1 and I am just starting to feel an urge to find myself again versus all energy into the children, they are getting old enough now that I have *some* (ha, ha) time to me. I am feeling the "call" again. A friend of mine has been having problems conceiving and I am connecting to her so much, perhaps because this is a struggle long past for me. I am seeing me in her so much--the connections seems uncanny as we dive into it. It is amazing how much Mother affects Motherhood. There is a deep seed of hurt between her and her Mom, as there was with mine. I am actually having dreams now about her and her Mother dynamic. whacky & cool.
I had a dream last night about a woman who was pregnant & I went over and saw her swollen belly and started crying. There was another woman there too. Watching " I "was so sad and hurt that the baby was not mine & then I saw on her ears, pearl earnings--I recognized them immediately as earnings that held value for me--Mother's Pearls. In my dream the woman who stood watching and observing said "she thinks his name is Danny but I don't". The voice in my dream cried more and silently inside said "Yes, yes. Daniel for a boy or Danniel for a girl"--that is the name for my baby".
Now, I do NOT want to be pregnant so the dream spooked me a little. As I look back I was the third woman watching and the voice of "I" was my friend. Then I thought of how Daniel was the Angel of Marriage and I thought of my friend and her struggle to have their second baby. I think somehow the Mother and Husband must be conflicting for Daniel and Mother to be in same dream. I looked up the definition of the baby name:
It is interesting too, that it is a Hebrew name since her ancestry is Jewish. I know that she is strugling with her Mother and it has affected her solar plexus--center of "I AM". I see her struggling to define herself as Mother in the context of her own struggle with her Mother--and a struggle with her faith somehow. All I know is that she and her Mom have not spoken in a year. I too went through this so I can relate. I see the pearls as a symbol of healing for her and her Mother. A bridge or connection to begin the path of healing. I know that all stones, silver, gold, etc hold energy and can be cleansed and cleared energetically. This is a great site I just found--
http://www.psychic-revelation.com/reference/a_d/crystals/charging_cleansing_crystals.html
Pearl - White: Recharge white pearls in waxing moonlight once a month.
I had a dream last night about a woman who was pregnant & I went over and saw her swollen belly and started crying. There was another woman there too. Watching " I "was so sad and hurt that the baby was not mine & then I saw on her ears, pearl earnings--I recognized them immediately as earnings that held value for me--Mother's Pearls. In my dream the woman who stood watching and observing said "she thinks his name is Danny but I don't". The voice in my dream cried more and silently inside said "Yes, yes. Daniel for a boy or Danniel for a girl"--that is the name for my baby".
Now, I do NOT want to be pregnant so the dream spooked me a little. As I look back I was the third woman watching and the voice of "I" was my friend. Then I thought of how Daniel was the Angel of Marriage and I thought of my friend and her struggle to have their second baby. I think somehow the Mother and Husband must be conflicting for Daniel and Mother to be in same dream. I looked up the definition of the baby name:
Origin of the name Daniel:
Derived from the Hebrew dāni’ēl (God is my judge). The name is borne in the Bible by a Hebrew prophet whose faith kept him from harm in a den of hungry lions
http://www.psychic-revelation.com/reference/a_d/crystals/charging_cleansing_crystals.html
Pearl - White: Recharge white pearls in waxing moonlight once a month.
