Reiki Detox Day 8-15

This week was really an inner focus week, even the blog was too much. I really really went in. I feel like I am making great strides not only in inner healing but outer as well. Each day  I  say my mantra, over and over. I have come across moments of anger, worry and frustration, and used the mantra to calm me down and help me look at the situation from another persepective.
 Just for today...
I will not anger.
I will not worry.
I will love honestly.
I will respect the oneness of all life.
I will be kind to everyone I meet.
I will be thankful for my many blessings
~Amen.

I feel like I am making great disocveries of self with my reiki selh healing. It feels so good to focus on my self, to give love, energy and attention to me.

I feel very conected with everything. Life is beatuiful. I just had my 31st birthday. And, on my birthday I did a 20 minute reiki meditation near the ocean. It was beautiful. I felt so clear and pure.

Reiki Detox Day 16

Well, I have not been very good at writing in the blog, but I have been good about my detox, I have been working on the mantra, the self healing, and my diet. Each day I wear something that reminds me of the chakra I am working on, today I am wearing a beautiful orange shirt. I had to go to the store and buy more yellow and green, I realized I have a lot of red and blue, some lavender, but little to no yellow! Ahh, something to be aware of! I have been doing a little reiki on others, my husband, my cat, my shower, my food. I can feel my heart beat in my palms, deep...when I focus on the energy I can feel it. I am so blessed.I missed the Reiki 3 class, because I was on a birthday getaway in cape-cod. But look forward to taking the next step. I will continue to do the healing, and prayer, and the self reiki no matter what.

Day 7 Reiki Detox

Today my husband and Father-in-law who is here for a visit went to church. After church my husband made made me a lovely meal. Organic eggs, grass-fed local bacon, organic local home-made rye bread, fresh local melon, blueberries and decaf coffee. After brunch we went to the beach. I was laying out in the beautiful sun, and did my reiki there on the beach.  After the beach I came home and prepped food for next week. Zuchinni, Summer squash "summer" casserole. Lamb stew. BLT sandwiches for lunch tomorrow. Now I am watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Then I will read. Then bed.

Reiki Day 6 Detox

Today I woke up did my mantra prayer, a little reiki healing on myself. I went to the farmers market. Errands. Made a salad with my new lovely bounty from the farmers market. Then off to the city for my Reiki  level 2 attunmment. I had such a lovely day and feel so blessed. I loved learning more, and discovering the symbols. The attunement felt so good. After the attunement we were able to practice healing on each other--it was amazing. I felt so nervous and frightened but I just trusted in the moment. Afterwards I felt a little shaky, but so much energy! When I did the healing she said she saw colors and felt movement so I am doing something right. When I came home I took a shower and did the healing on myself again and a big prayer of gratitude.

Day 5 Reiki Detox

Day 5 Reiki Detox--Throat Chakra.

Today I was so tired. Barely drag my feet, finish a sentence tired. For breakfast, I had cereal and fresh local blueberries. Yum. For lunch I had left over cous-cous and yellow squash-you gotta eat :(. For a snack I made a bluebrry and berry smoothie. After work I did my reiki positions and took a nap. Then I woke up and ended up laying in bed and reading for 3 hours.For dinner I had a pizza with eggplant topping. That was good. I admit for "dessert" with my pizza I had a caffine free diet coke. Lots of sugar but I was craving a soda, and since I am pregnant I give my belly what it wants (within reason). It's funny my husband drinks soda and eats potato chips--I normally do not. I can tell I am carrying a little version of Joe when I crave potato chips and soda-HA. I will have to break her of that habbit! It is a TREAT ONLY!

After dinner we tried to watch a movie.  I ended up falling asleep. at 8:00. I told you I was tired.

Day 4 of the Reiki Detox

Day 4 of the Reiki Detox-HEART CHAKRA.

Well, not a surprise really I woke up this morning ANGRY and WEEPY. Yes, this could be the pregnancy hormones, however I haven't felt too many mood swings during this pregnancy, I think its the heart chakra releasing some yucky stuff I am HAPPY to say goodbye to! So Thank You Universe-I hope whatever yucky stuff you helped me release is transmuted into something lovely and wonderfully healing for the Earth! So be it!

I got up this morning and had toast and PBJ for breakfast. And an ensure shake for snack. For lunch I had a tuna wrap with tons of green leafy lettuce. For a snack I had a delicious farmers market fresh garden cucumber, It was divine. For dinner, I had pasta and Alfredo with peas!! For desert I am making Zucchini Bread with local Garden Fresh Zuchinni from my farmers market! I CAN'T WAIT!

I of course wore my green panties and wore a green shirt today I wore my rose quartz necklace and my peridot earrings (my birthstone).

I will do my reiki healing positions in the shower again tonight, I liked that. And I will of course say my mantra many times before the day is through.

Day 3 of the reiki detox

Day 3 of the 21 Day Reiki Detox:

Solar Plexus, I AM. I woke up in the morning and did my reiki positions and self healing. I taped the mantra on my bathroom mirror for easy access and repetition.

For breakfast, an egg! YUM. And, OJ With Toast and some PBJ.  I had a snack of a bowl of whole-grain cereal with milk. For lunch I had a salad with a scoop of tuna salad on top. For dinner I had cous-cous, farmers market local lovely yellow summer squash boiled with butter, and sautéed turnips and parsnips with some turmeric and cumin powder. And, I admit I had a bite of lamb from my husbands plate. For desert, I had a farmers market peach (actually I had two).

Before I went to bed, I took a shower and did my reiki positions again in the shower. Still can't say I "feel" anything. However I like the practice of focused prayer and self healing very much. And, since I truley believe that thoughts are power, the best thing I can do is have faith that this is in fact healing.

I wore my yellow panties, and a beaded rock necklace that hold all different stones, it just felt like the right one to wear today. I wore my favorite dangle gold earings and all today I must admit I felt GOOD. STRONG. AWAKE. ENERGY.

Day 2 of the Reiki Detox

Today Day 2, NAVAL or SACRAL CHAKRA--I woke up and  tried my reiki positions in bed, as a way to start the day. I said my mantra, and got up to enjoy the day. I had a big glass of OJ, and cereal for breakfast. For lunch I had my  yesterday's left over burritos. Side note on dinner: Today I had the honor of going to the Dr. to find out my baby's gender. IT IS A GIRL. I feel this is the perfect way to honor the sacral chakra. My husband and I are SO happy. In celebration we went out to eat at a fancy italian restaurant near our house and I ordered  a pasta dish with sardines and raisens (not my favorite dish in the world, but I am trying to get protein and cut back the meat plus as we know from my chakra diet that fish and crabs are totally forms of solar plexus protein! For dessert- Yummy tiramisu (but not too much) and vanilla gelato! For snacks, I had a slice of a cantelope melon and a fresh local peach from my farmers market! It always makes me want to sing that song..."Peaches for me, Peaches for you...."

Oh, and I wore my amber jewelry, and my orange panties a great way to get me in the NAVAL flow! Oh, Oh, and i have orange toe-nail polish!!!

Day 1 of the reiki detox

Reiki Attunement

On August 1, 2010 I received my Reiki 1 certificate and attunement from my lovely healer and inspired teacher Natalie Berthold. http://www.sproutinglove.com/  I am so excited to be going down this path of healing, it is something I have wanted for so long. Every Angel card I pick tells me that I am a light worker and need to get healing. Immediately after the class I saw 999 everywhere confirming to  me that I must move forward along this path (go to http://www.lisabeachy.com/ for a great concise break down of Doreen Virtue's Angel Number book and free Angel card readings--I purchased a different version, a deck of Doreen Virtue's Angel Cards and love them).

The attunement was lovely. Very peaceful and healing, I was rocking back in forth in the vibration of loving energy that I received. I would have liked to stay in that zone for hours. Now that the class is over, I am currently in the 21 day detox healing after the attunement, and feel like this is the perfect time to come back to my blog, since it connects so closely with healing, chakras and diet. Yesterday my Internet was not working, for me to share my  ROOT chakra Day 1 story.

After the attunement, I can't say I feel anything out of the norm. Although when I was petting my cat I was thinking of reiki and my wrist started to throb--but mainly I am just feeling very peaceful, very blessed and very happy.


"Just for today, I will not worry.
Just for today, I will not be angry.
Just for today, I will live honestly.
Just for today, I will respect the oneness of all life.
Just for today, I will be kind to everyone I meet.
Just for today, I will give thanks for my many blessings"

each day has a discovery.

I work up this morning feeling like I never slept with vivid, wierd dreams that just don't quiet make sense. I have been fighting a sadness for the last few weeks, that keeps getting interupted by signs of faith and hope. A documentray on Buddha, a farmers market full of farm fresh food. Today I gravitated immediatly towards the purples. Beets, and red onion, purple peppers, plums, blueberries. I know enough to know that when my body craves these foods, that my higher self is telling me something. I haven't been journaling enough yet the other day I did, the next day questions I asked in the journal were answered in real life. Today my foggy dreams, my food choice shows me that I am on a path. My higher self is trying to tell me something. The question is am I awake enough to understand the message?

many many changes.

Since my chakra diet experiment, I have weekly done simple rites to acknowledge and focus on my chakras. Little things Like I bought underwear red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet. And as I wear each color I remind myself each day to breath into that center. I wear nail-polish. red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet. What a simple and fun way to remind self to breath and release that center. Of course, what I eat reminds me now of that center. I now notice on certain days I gravitate towards yellows, or reds. I know then that I need to breath and give attention to that center. I have since discovered that I am pregnant. I am now 16 weeks pregnant and finding that spiritually life changes when miracles are happening every moment within your body. It is less about looking outward for knowing and more about looking inward and seeing the miracle of each moment. I see my body changing. I am amazed by each feeling, impulse, and change. Hearing the heart beat and seeing the baby has literally blow my mind each and every time. It is a miracle, each day, each moment is a miracle. I have worked with my healer on distant healing in the first trimester, and will work with her again soon. I am going to take a reiki class. I am feeling the flow of life in all way, all around me. I have been drawn to a number of books. and cds. I heard Buddha say he is   a lotus flower in bloom. Someone who started in the mud, and reached his way through the murky water, stretching, stretching, and now above the water blooming just above the water, earth, water, air..... the passion that makes the journey is your desire. your fire to keep going. I  understand that metaphor. I am reaching for the Sun.  I am growing, each day each moment looking toward the Sun, something beatiful within me ready to bloom.

third. eye

bath

Third Eye Chakra Day 1

The Brow Chakra is associated with the color indigo or violet. Color: Violet. Violet is universal love, selflessness and understanding.The Third Eye Chakra (Ajna) is associated with clear sight and clear insight. It is also often referred to as the "third eye" or the "mind center." Brow chakra is located between the brows in the inward center of the forehead. The brow or third eye chakra is our avenue to wisdom - learning from our experiences and putting them in perspective. Our ability to separate real world from fantasy is in connection with the healthfulness of this chakra. through developing impersonal intuitive reasoning we expand our consciousness

•Sanskrit Name - ajna


•Physical Location - center of the forehead

•Purposes - action of ideas, insight, mind development

•Spiritual Lesson - understanding, reality check point, detachment, open mind

•Physical Dysfunctions- brain tumors, strokes, blindness, deafness, seizures, learning disabilities, spinal dysfunctions, panic, depression

•Mental and Emotional Issues - fear of truth, discipline, judgement, evaluation, emotional intelligence, concept of reality, confusion

•Information Stored Inside Sacral Chakra - seeing clear picture (symbolic or literal), wisdom, intuition, mental facilities, intellect

•Area of Body Governed - brain, neurological system, eyes, ears, nose, pituitary, pineal glands

Aromas-Mint, Vanilla and Jasmin
•Food: Purple asparagus, grapes, brinjals

Best Therapy: Meditation, Color Therapy, Watercoloring.


Daily Exercise: Rub hands together vigorously, then place palms over your eyes
Yoga Pose-The Headstand, The Corpse and Alternative Nostril Breathing.

•Gemstones - Purple Flourite, Sugalite, Lapis, Quartz, Lapis lazuli, Indigo Sapphire, and Sodalities, silver metal

•Flower Essences - Wild Oat, Queen Anne's Lace, Madia

Throat Chakra Day 7

I feel like I fell off the bandwagon this week, but in many ways I did not. I  had to do a lot, and communicate my needs. I cried a lot. I moved through a lot of "stuff" and really laid some important stuff on the table.

Throat Chakra Day 6

Ash Wednesday, Today. Lent starts.  I am going to continue no meat. I am also going to *try* to say no to chocolate. That will be a huge sacrifice for me.

I will use lent to continue my exploration of self.



Today I realized I had not yet done my throart chakra bath soak...so I did. My head, neck and jaw were puslating, i felt like chanting in the bath lots of OMs and theater vocal exersizes, it felt great.

My husband, is going back to his roots at the Catholic church, so we went to an Ash Wednesday service. I am allowed to get the ashes because it is not a sacrament-Joe did all this research- so I did. It was really cool. From Ashes, to Ashes, Dust to Dust. You came from the Dust and you acknowledge you will return. It is about asking forgiveness and opening your hear to God. I like that.

Throat Chakra Day 5

I was so depressed today. I barely ate, just slept and cried. I did watch a few meditations on youtube.

Thorat Chakra Day 4

Monday Day off, more painting.

crying. all this move is just hitting me hard. but, I am just letting myself cry no need pushing it down not in a throat chakra meditation week.

Throat Chakra Day 3

Painting my new apartment. Valentines Day. So much work, but we had fun.  Food wise, All I can say is I am avoiding meat so that is good but past that.....I can't say I am on the wagon. Just too much going on.

I am really getting scared about this move. This new apartment is so small, I know it is just a transitional place to see if we want to stay in the area but I am really getting jittery due to all  this change.

Throat Chakra Day 2

http://healing.about.com/cs/chakras/a/chakra5.htm

The Throat Chakra is associated with the color sky blue. This chakra is our will center. The healthfulness of the fifth chakra is in relation to how honestly one expresses himself/herself. Lying violates the body and spirit . We speak our choices with our voices (throats). All choices we make in our lives have consequences on an energetic level. Even choosing not to make a choice such as in repressing our anger (not speaking out) may manifest into laryngitis. We have all experienced that "lump in our throats" when we are at a crossroad of not knowing how to speak the right words in any given situation, perhaps even stuffing our own emotions. A challenge of the throat chakra is to express ourselves in the most truthful manner. Also to receive and assimilate information. Seek only the truth.




Chakra Five - Associations



•Color - blue

•Sanskrit Name - vishuddha

•Physical Location - throat, neck region

•Purposes - learning to take responsibility for one's own needs

•Spiritual Lesson - confession, surrender personal will over to divine will, faith, truthfulness over deceit

•Physical Dysfunctions- sore throat, mouth ulcers, scoliosis, swollen glands, thyroid dysfunctions, laryngitis, voice problems, gum or tooth problems, TMJ

•Mental and Emotional Issues - personal expression, creativity, addiction, criticism, faith, decision making (choices), will, lack of authority

•Information Stored Inside Throat Chakra - self-knowledge, truth, attitudes, hearing, taste, smell

•Area of Body Governed - throat, thyroid, trachea, neck vertebrae, mouth, teeth, gums, esophagus, parathyroid, hyperthalemus
 

throat chakra DAY 1

The Throat Charka (Vissuddha) seeks communication and clear expression.The Throat Chakra-is about finding peace. This Chakra helps brings our own truth into the world, and to aid us in communicating how we feel and think.

Feeding Your Throat Chakra-

The throat chakra is a transmitter of truth, freedom, and clarity. It is located in the throat and neck region of the body and extends

upward to include the lower region of the brain or cortex.

This area of the physical body holds the communication center, and the gateway to inner and outer worlds.

What does your Throat Chakra need so you can fully express who you are?

Speaking One's Truth

· Sea plants: sea weed, dulse flakes,

· Fruit: lemons, limes, grapefruit, kiwi, apples, pears, plums, peaches, apricots, etc

· vegetables:

· Liquids: water, fruit juices, herbal teas

· Spices: salt, lemon grass

· Herb: Frankincense

· Flower: Morning glory

· Eat high quality, local, organic—think about the spiritual energy that is in what you eat—do you really want something that is hurting, not treated with love?

· soups - By eating foods like soups (earth-water elements fused together through fire), we encourage and honor our connection with the elemental nature of foods and our bodies.

Eating soups can open up the throat chakra area and create more ease in eating. Eating spoonfuls of soup compared to bites of food may help us to slow down and be more in the moment

· Ethnic food/new tastes- It exposes you to an abundance of tradition and culture. It broadens not only your food horizon, but helps you to step out of the box of your everyday living!

Throat Stimulants:. Blue Sky, Ocean Overlook ,Communication, Self-Expression, Free Will, Creativity, Eloquence. Singing, Chanting, Humming, Toning, chewing food slowly and with mindefulness, chants, and sometimes screaming You may want to wear a blue scarf around your neck today to honor your ability to speak up and speak out, or

place a photo or picture of a clear blue sky where you can see it and be reminded of the heights from which creative inspiration seems to descend.

Celebrate the many ways in which you express yourself. Take some time today to simply breathe in and let the air out as a sound that expresses what you feel:

a groan, a laugh, a sigh, a clear, strong note

Gemstones - Chrysocola,Lapis, Blue Opal / Flower Essences - Cosmos, Trumpet Vine, Larch

Affirmations:

I am the messenger.

I speak the sweet whispers of the heart.

I sing my song.

I speak my truth with clarity and courage.

I am the essence of sound vibration.



Meditation to Open the Throat Chakra:. Cross your fingers on the inside of your hands, without the thumbs. Let the thumbs touch at the tops, and pull them slightly up.

Concentrate on the Throat chakra at the base of the throat.

Chant the sound HAM. (ewald baker) Musical Note is G or So

Letting Energy Flow: .

Yoga Pose: The Lion, The Shoulder Stand, The Plough, The Headstand, The Camel and The Fish.

heart chakra days 5-7

This was a difficult week because my mother in law had a stress induced heart attack, I did workwith my spiritual team and I avoided meat but mainly I just focused on the NOW of what was happening to my loved one. Her heart attack has a "street" name : commonly known as broken heart syndrome. Broken Heart, Which, if I take the fear and grief out of the situation and look at it from a spiritual perspective--there is a lot of syncronisity in my life right now. Broken Heart. If you allow these things in life to control you- your heart literally can't take the stress. I too am under stress, I have been TRYING to release and free myself from this stress but lots and lots of stress just IS  and some I make up  due to my own fears and add  them into  and onto other stress. I myself need to learn how to reduce stress, how to let go, how to forgive, how to let God. I have been trying to release my fear and anxiety to AA Michael. And, I have been working a lot with my spiritual team-who have been showing me signs and sending me love. But, I need to use my body more. I have been talking about yoga for years now, I do bits and pieces here and there, but I want to practice yoga, my body wants it~This will be a new goal for me. I have to start connecting the dots with mind, body and spirit.

heart chakra day 5

my mother  in law had a heat attack.

heart chakra day 4

i took my bath salt bath which was awesome. I have been using that chant om mani padma hum, and feel better with it. in my bath today I felt so peaceful and happy.



i ate meat today, actually my husband bought this little roast chicken for dinner, and i thought--why not? a nice dinner no harm---but i became literlly ill after the meal. It was like my body DID NOT want that in it!

heart chakra day 2

heart chakra day 2, was a day of meditation and rest. I found some great meditation on youtube, one had a chant om mani padme hum, id never heard before but felt so natural and peaceful.









Mantra of Compassion - Om MANI PEDME HUN


Tibetan Buddhists believe that saying the mantra (prayer), Om Mani Padme Hum, out loud or silently to oneself, invokes the powerful benevolent attention and blessings of Chenrezig, the embodiment of compassion. Viewing the written form of the mantra is said to have the same effect -- it is often carved into stones and placed where people can see them.

Spinning the written form of the mantra around in a Mani wheel (or prayer wheel) is also believed to give the same benefit as saying the mantra, and Mani wheels, small hand wheels and large wheels with millions of copies of the mantra inside, are found everywhere in the lands influenced by Tibetan Buddhism.



The Prayer Wheel: Spiritual Technology from Tibet



It is said that all the teachings of the Buddha are contained in this mantra: Om Mani Padme Hum can not really be translated into a simple phrase or sentence.



It is appropriate, though, to say a little about the mantra, so that people who want to use it in their meditation practice will have some sense of what they are doing, and people who are just curious will understand a little better what the mantra is and why it is so important to Tibetan Buddhists.

heart chakra day 3

  I  went to church this morning. I cant describe it...I felt blessed.



I kept seeing the numbers 444 all day today.... and so I looked it up  on lisabeachy.com

444 — Thousands of angels surround you at this moment, loving and supporting you. You have a very strong and clear connection with the angelic realm, and are an Earth angel yourself. You have nothing to fear—all is well.


WOW

heart chakra day1

The heart chakra governs our interactions as we reach out to touch and embrace other people. Keeping the balance between personal needs and the needs of others is the function of the heart chakra. Expansion, growth and freedom are all prerequisted for a healthy and mature heart chakra. (sue and simon lilly)

Feeding Your Heart Chakra

Healing Emotional Hurts

· Fruit: pear, kiwi, green grapes, lime, avacado, apples,

· Leafy vegetables: spinach, kale, dandelion greens, green beans, green peas, calabrese, setc.

· Air vegetables: broccoli, cauliflower, cabbage, sprouts, leeks, celery, squash, etc.

· Liquids: green teas

· Spices: basil, sage, thyme, cilantro, parsley

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Heart Stimulants:. Nature walks, time spent with family or friends. Green food & drink. Green gemstones and green clothing. Using green oils such as eucalyptus or pine essential oils. Relationships–The right to love. Love, forgiveness, compassion. Ability to have self-control. Acceptance of oneself.

Meditation to Open the Solar Plexus or Naval Chakra: Sit cross-legged. Let the tips of your index finger and thumb touch. Put your left hand on your left knee and your right hand in front of the lower part of your breast bone (so a bit above the solar plexus).Concentrate on the Heart chakra at the spine, level with the heart.

Chant the sound YAM. (ewald baker) Musical Note is FA.

Letting Energy Flow:

Yoga Pose: Cow Face Pose- Gomukhasana

solar plexus day 7

Already?

this week has flown by. I feel like it was farily easy, I did spend a lot of energy incorporating the red and orange chakras as well into this chakra....it just felt right like i needed the balance of all three. Especially since Sacral is all about flow. This morning I listened to a very soothing meditation on blog talk radio.

Solar Plexus Day 6

This morning I had coffee, a fruit smoothie, water, rye toast with butter and honey....
for lunch I had leftover fish and couscous.

I have done a few mediations I found on Lisa Beachy's youtube channel....
http://www.youtube.com/user/LisaCBeachy

This exersize on clearing emotional hurts with AA raphael was very profound for me....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ly0uQ1TTJbE



                                                                               

for dinner I made a rainbow pepper, watercress quiche

with a side of watercress and radish and salsa.

Solar Plexus Day 5

Today I was on the go-go looking at apartments all day. I had coffee and pb&j on an eglish muffin for bfast for a snack, I had a oatmeal, brown sugar and nuts with a small coffee at starbucks and and for lunch I had a roasted veg and goat chesse sandwich at Cosi, with a soda. For dinner I made a pizza (well frozen cheese pizza) and added red, orange, yellow peper, fresh tomoato and onion with basil, oregano, and ....for desert chocolate chip cookies. I am happy because on a day out A) I avoided meat, and B) ate food inspired by the solar plexus, sacral and root chakra.

I was under a lot of stress yesterday but feel like I did a pretty good job of going with the flow and just settling into the Now. Which is very very good for me.

Solar Plexus or Naval Chakra Day 4

SMOOTHIE DAY. I had a smoothie for  bfast (and a small bowl of granola cereal) and lunch.
For Dinner I had periogie with red,yellow and orange peppers. yellow onion and butter with cumin seeds. And, beets...I  know that is more root chakra but I was craving them! Trusitng the craves lately.

Today I did my 3rd bath salt soak from Natalie Berthold, and spoutinglove.com Such an amazing thing to have a bath soak with intention. Makes everything come into focus. Someone called this chakra "Manipura! The city of jewels!" and wow, what a great way to look at it....

Solar Plexus Day 3

Today, was a day of yum.

I made a yummy scrambled eggs (1/2 real eggs and 1/2 egg beaters) with cheese, and whole grain rye toast for bfast.& a delicious Fruit salad!
pineapple, cantaloupe, strawberries, YUM!



for lunch I just snack'd a little on chips and and cheese because bfast was so late and so filling....but for dinner I went all out.

I made a lovely watercress salad, with red radish, tomato (all root chakra) with yellow onion and yellow pepper! Made with a lovely homemade lemon vinaigrette!

&

a pumpkin curry soup with lemon and oregano tilapia white fish with a yummy couscous and corn and carrot side.

My husband and I were talking at dinner tonight, about how nice it is to make and eat food with intention. Joe said " I don't know about the spiritual aspect, but I love the food part". And it is true, we don't hunt, or harvest our food...it comes in a truck, packaged, delivered to a store, put in your fridge and then in your mouth. There is no relationship to the food we eat, no connection. Doing this diet makes me think about what I am buying, making and putting in my mouth. I am starting to see that the food also has a connection to me, if I let it nurish me, it can heal me too!

Solar Plexus Chakra Day 2

Today was exhausting, I had to look at apartments in CT (still haven't found one I love but I did find one I could settle for. It is SMALL, but good location-what to do?) I had get the car fixed, I had to drive back into the city to perform in a play on the LES,  and go to a friends bday afterwards-which I was not fun at because I did not want to drink or party I wanted to sleep. Run, run all day. For breakfast I had brown rice with honey, cranberry and walnuts. For lunch I had a vegetarian raviloi with roasted red peppers and asparagus, and for dinner a slice of artichoke and spinach pizza. Not quiet all solar plexus but because I was eating out all day, it was hard to pass on the meat. So at least I made the right choice there. My huband got this pizza with bacon and chicken, Oh my gosh did I want that...but no meat. It is good. But, I really gravitate towards green foods. I wonder why I always "need the green"? This is something I will have to look at when the heart chakra comes up next week.

I woke up this AM and read a chapater in my book on the solar plexus....I am in a new chaper while the root and sacral chakra were chakras of manifestation, the solar plexus and heart chakras are chakras of relationship. they begin to integrate  our energy with the world around us. They also spoke of the symbol for infinity and how the solar plexus is much like the center of the symbol -that which integrates and moves all energy from one point to another.

Naval or Solar Plexus Chakra, Day 1

"The Solar Plexus is associated with the element of fire because it takes raw materials and transforms them. In nearly all spiritual philosophies the wisdom of the self has been compared to the light of the sun. The perfect clarity of the solar plexus chakra clearly illuminates everything for what it is.”


(sue and simon lilly)

Feeding Your Solar Plexus Chakra

Boosting Self-Esteem and Encouraging Self-Love .

The Solar Plexus Chakra (Manipura) is known as the Power Chakra, driving for control,

competence and success to fortify the ego.

· Granola and Grains: pastas, breads, cereal, rices, flax seed, sunflower seeds, etc.

· Fruits/Veg: rock melon, yellow pumpkins, mangoes, pineapples, yellow pepper

· Dairy: milk, cheeses, yogurt

· Spices: ginger, mints (peppermint, spearmint, etc.), melissa, chamomile, turmeric, cumin, fennel



Solar Plexus Stimulants:. Belly Dancing, Conscious Breathing, Hug yourself as tightly as possible, then puff your chest out as far as possible. Twist and hold each direction. Repeat. Incense: Calamus, Cardamon, Carnation, Cinnamon, Coriander, Ginger, Marigold, Orange, Scents: Lavender, Rosemary, Bergamot. Gemstones: Amber, Tigers Eye, Yellow Topaz and Citrine

Meditation to Open the Solar Plexus or Naval Chakra: Put your hands before your stomach, slightly below your solar plexus. Let the fingers join at the tops, all pointing away from you. Cross the thumbs. It is important to straighten the fingers.Concentrate on the Navel chakra located on the spine, a bit above the level of the navel.Chant the sound RAM (ewald berkers) The corresponding musical note is “me”. Or E.

Letting Energy Flow: Chest Opening Poses such as The Cobra, The Bow, The Cat, The Coil and The Twist.

Yoga Pose: The Spinal Twist

What is for dinner?

Spagetti Squash and Pasta Sauce.
                                                           YUM.

Sacral Chakra Day 7

Health with Colors: The Interrelation of Food and Chakras

Healthmad is a great article that I found today!
Health with Colors: The Interrelation of Food and Chakras | Healthmad

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Today my last day of the sacral chakra I made a lovely dinner to celebrate... brown rice with honey, lobster tail, corn & carrots, red quino grains with walnuts and cranberry. (OJ for drink)

Sacral Chakra Day 6

I made a lovely dinner tonight, I made a variation of shrimp scampi with carrots and spices all intune with this chakra. Today was a good day of research, intention and eating sacral chakra foods. I am feeling very good!

Sacral Chakra Day 5

I recently purchased an at home yoga and meditation CD & I spent two hours today doing yoga, for stress relief and listening to the Dalai Lama. It felt great. You may want to purcahse the CD-
Yoga for Stress Relief (With The Dalai Lama) (2006)Starring: Barbara Benagh Director: Michael Woh. Here is the link on amazon:
http://www.amazon.com/Yoga-Stress-Relief-Dalai-Lama/dp/B000ICLRKW

At Dinner tonight my husband said that he really enjoyed this new diet because of the variety in food I have been making. We had Shrimp Cocktail for an appetizer-one of his favorites-and for dessert Strawberries!

Sacral Chakra Day 4

Sacral Chakra Meditation
http://hubpages.com/hub/Meditations-for-the-Chakras

"Sit cross-legged, close your eyes, and place your right hand on your lower abdomen, just below the belly button. Focus your breath into this area and see the warm orange glow that lives here. Slowly begin rubbing your belly, making small circles. Feel the energy created in this chakra center. Imagine a creative idea you would like to start or something in your life that you want, something that would bring you pleasure. As you focus on this idea, imagine what it would be like to see your completed creation or obtain your desire. Notice the feelings in your body. You are harnessing this energy to bring your creations and desires to fruition. Bask in the glow of knowing that you can have, be, or do anything you want. You are abundant."

Today I also tried my 2nd chakra bath soak, but like I said before I have been self sabotaging my healing and forgot to plug the tub and the salt went down the drain, so I see I am truly resisting this healing. Rather then be defeatist, I filled the tub and focused on meditating on my own with the sacral chakra. I imagine the water to be filled with healing love and light all focusing around my abdomen I laid in the tub with my fingers in the shape of a heart lying on my tummy. I tried to channel all healing into my second chakra, and release all fears, all toxins and negative energy held here. As I laid there, I saw pink, green and white lights behind my eyes, my throat got tight and tears swelled. I had a lot to love and a lot to let go of. But, now I feel blessed. Creativly Abundant and ready to be my true feminine self.




Not so great eating day...I mean I am drinking OJ and water and trying to stay focused....

Sacral Chakra, Day 3

Wow. If the Sacral Chakra is the "feeling" chakra, I have been doing a lot of that. It's like everything has gone wrong this week. It's like I have been very resistant of everything, a stubborn little girl trying to stand up straight in a tornado of emotional upheaval.  I think I really need work on this center. It's like everything waited to explode until this week, along with my resistance means I need to work on this part of me.

.I feel like I haven't had time to really cook-  I have been snacking-eating apricots, peaches, strawberries, rye toast with peanut butter, yams, orange peppers. But, Food wise, I have been OK. The main thing I notice is the detox aspect of this diet.Again I took the water and dyed it orange, so that psychically every time I drink the water I imagine it going to purify that sacral chakra. And, with all the water I drink per day I can definitely see how this alone is changing my body. My life. I'm sure people will say dying the water orange, (1drop red, 1 drop yellow) that I am polluting the water with the dye, but it really helps me want to drink the water--and it makes my consciously think about WHY I am drinking this water. And, my body is really getting unplugged. Let's just hope I can get the emotions unplugged, becasue this is where I am at a bottle neck.

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this is amazing.

Second Chakra-Sacral Chakra DAY 1

"The Sacral Chakra is the reservoir of our life energy from which energy is channelled or directed through the rest of the body. Spontaneous enjoyment of experience , exploration of the senses and play are all characteristicss of this chakra, stimulating our ability to learn and develop as individuals.”


(sue and simon lilly)

It is associated with creativity, sexuality, relationship, and reproduction.

Feeding Your Sacral Center : Svadhisthana

Nourishing the Sexual/Creativity Center

· Sweet fruits: oranges, peaches, apricots, melons, mangos, strawberries, passion fruit, coconut, etc.

· Vegetables: pumpkin, peppers, carrots, buttersquash

· Other Orange Foods: brown rice, sesame seeds, almonds, walnuts, nuts, oats, shellfish, seafoods, etc.

· Honey

· Vitamins: Vitamin A, C, Calcium, Zinc

· Spices: cinnamon, vanilla, carob, sweet paprika, sesame seeds, caraway seeds

Sacral Stimulants : Sex, Dancing, Walking, Yoga, Ti-Chi where energy is flowing, all forms of creativity, belly dancing, yoga, bathing, meditating, Orange food and drink. Orange/ Brown are the colors associated with this chakra so clothing, bathing in orange, etc. Using sacral scented oils such as jasmine, juniper, musk, rose, rosemary, sandalwood, and ylang-ylang, as well as the gemstones amber, calcite tiger's eye, carnelian, citrine, coral, fire agate and opal, garnet, moonstone, and orange tourmaline.

Meditation to Open the Sacral Chakra : Put your hands in your lap, palms up, on top of each other. Left hand underneath, its palm touching the back of the fingers of the right hand. The tips of the thumbs touch gently.Concentrate on the Sacral chakra at the sacral bone (on the lower back).
Chant the sound VAM/MA for several breaths. (ewald berkers) The Musical Note associated with this chakra is D.

Letting Energy Flow:

Yoga Pose: The Cobbler, The Butterfly, or The Cobra

RED CHAKRA DAY 7

WOW,  what a roller coaster root has been. Up one day, down the next. Running with energy one day and then meditating for hours the next. I realized this chakra- food wise- was very easy for me, garlic, spices, onions, potatoes, red pasta sauce, salsa, meat, coffee, sugar, wine.... most of my food is naturally RED rooted. I use to eat very little meat, and then I got married to a MEAT eater. So, I just kind of started adding more and more meat into my diet, but this week, I was TRYING to eat meat and focusing on WHAT i ate and I realized- I already ate a LOT of meat! But it is amazing what eating food with intentions of using it to heal your body will do. Same meals as always pretty much, but I felt a difference, both while I prepared the meals and when I ate then... Meat especially, when you THINK about MEAT- about appreciating where the food came and what it purpose in your body will be, it changes your relationship to the food. In the coming chakras meat will fade to null. My husband has been super supportive, thus far, I am wondering what it will be like as meat fades from the table.

Next we have orange- or sacral chakra.

Root Chakra 6

Not the best eating wise, but I found a lovely salsa and red nacho chip "red beans and rice" YUM.

Root Chakra, Day 5

Today....I had to run to make it to a 10am job interview which meant waiting till noon for them to be ready for me. By the time I got into the interview I was hungry and annoyed. I kept trying to ground myself and maybe I did so too much. I did not hit it off with the person interviewing me.  I also have been working with masculine energy for a play that I am in- where I play a woman who passes as a man and fights in the civil war. I have two more days of the root chakra meditation. I feel very good about the growth I have made in the root chakra and feel ready to move on to the next chakra's soon. But, Root is not done yet!

Today I had a very moving experience with root chakra-muldahara. I work with a healer-Natalie Berthold- her website is http://www.sproutinglove.com/. She makes these amazing bath salts which are filled with light and love. She has salts for each chakra, which I purchased to help me learn about, further grow and balance each chakra and deepen my faith.

In the soak- where I 'marinate in love'.
I focused on the mantra " I am rooted and grounded"-during the soak, I lit candles, listened to a CD with Gregorian chants, and focused on my root-accepting the peace, love and grounding the universe had to offer.
In the midst of the soak, I came to realize this about myself- my biggest fear is not being loved. I was terrified that I was unlovable-unwanted. During the soak, I allowed myself to literally accept the  love- I am perfectly safe, healthy, happy and very much so loved.! I love myself so I can love others, not the other way around.

So thank you root chakra, for helping me to  root myself and ground myself in LOVE!
I accept the LOVE and LIGHT!!!

Root Chakra, Day 4

Ok, I started off the day well, with a protein packed breakfast of omelet with salsa and red onion, red peppers and cheese.... and of course I got the sugar, chocolate and coffee quota of the day--but not enough "red" food for my approval because slowly throughout the day of going  & going my food practice left the red wagon and I haven't been drinking enough water either, but It's ok. Because I have been reading and thinking about the red chakra and trying to visualise red--harder then it sounds. And, today for me really was about getting things done. I spent most of the day packing--something I have been putting off, but needed to be done. So in that regard I did very much so act in accordance with the root chakra, I took care of what must be done.

 Tomorrow I will be more focused on the food I eat, and the water I drink. I also have a job interview, very important because right now, I am unemployed and need money. And money is a very important part of security - which the red chakra is all about. I also purchased a bath salt soak that has been charged with healing energy and reiki to balance the root chakra. So, I look forward to tomorrow and many blessings coming my way---financially ( I hope) and spiritually!

I learned today that the musical note that relates to and corresponds to the base chakra is "DO"  (you know, like, in do-re-me) so I know I know when I chant LAM I will do so in the note of DO. Very cool.

I watched this video on you tube which was relaxing, informative and had very groovy red chakra based music (not like some of the other scary loud supposed chakra stuff i have heard on youtube). The music from the video was from guna sangah, called "red muladhara chakra". Please check this out.

Chakra 1 - The Red Root Meditation

I found this meditation on youtube, and thought it was very good.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkJdJpYzbj4

Root Chakra Day 3

I have to admit, I am loving the root chakra. I feel great. I have energy, I feel happy, motivated! One thing I am learning about myself and my relationship to my root chakra, is that there is no need to feel fear in times of change, but simply to run with it, embrace it. I am going through a time of immense change in my life, my living situations, my career. It seems everything has turned me upside down. But thanks to my meditation on my root chakra-I have been dancing, listening to music, making love, meditating, embracing my inner warrior, stamping my feet, eating food I love, drinking wine, and eating chocolate - all with the intention of nourishing and pleasing my root chakra! It's like I gave myself a vacation from the negativity, the fears, the doubts, and gave myself the permission to love myself-but really to enjoy myself! And in loving myself more-in turn I feel like I have been able to love others more so.Not to mention-It has been fun- and it is only the beginning of my chakra journey!

Menu:
Breakfast=coffee, toast with strawberry cream cheese and honey energized for the root chakra and raspberry yourgart.
lunch=nutella and peanut butter sandwich, red gala apple
snack=peanuts, sunflower seeds, grapes, pineapple.
dinner=steak, french fries & ketchup, and corn & of course Red Wine!
desert=hot chocolate

This is the meditation I did today

Base Chakra, Day 2

Today I started with coffee, milk and sugar like always for breakfast raspberry yougart and a red apple with peanut butter honey and cinnamon.

I found a collection of dark colored and red colored rocks to sit with for morning meditation, to charge and inspire my root chakra.

I drank my water with a drop of red food coloring, I love watching the red dye mix and blend into the water. It is like a meditation just watching the swirls of color, as I visualize my intention of the water being meant for base chakra cleansing and purification. I don't drink a lot of water normally-something I see now that I must! It makes it a little more fun to drink colored water (even if it is only red dye). I did this seven times, and I must say I did not realize how dehydrated I was! I am certainly detoxing and purifying!

For lunch, I made a spicy chicken stir fry with red peppers, red onions! With cranberry and seltzer water for my drink.

I took time to listen to a chakra blancing on youtube.com


I loved this meditation. It was clear, loving and very peaceful...I wish I could have listened to the whole piece because it stopped abruptly after the root chakra.

For dinner, I made a lovely sugar and spice encrusted duck for dinner with red quinoa, a side salad with cherry tomatoes, and a side of corn and peas (for balance) and Red Wine, of course! My husband and I sat down and had a lovely meal. We said grace, and I also explained my intention of making the meal and what we were celebrating. We lit candles, drank our wine and had a lovely lovely meal together.

Plus our lovely desert was chocolate and caramel turtles.

We went to bed, feeling full, loved and blessed!

YUM.

I must admit, I feel great.

base chakra connection

I am now doing research on the base chakra to learn more:
did you know that the base chakra MULADHARA means foundation?
The Indian depiction of the chakras shows a yellow square with 4 red petals around it. The yellow square represents earth, and the 4 petals represent north, east, south and west. The animal form for the base chakra is an elephant with 7 trunks that represent the chakras, the planets, the heavens, etc. On the elephants back is a seed mantra the sound that initiates this chakra. LAM.
Located at the base of the spine the base chakra is sometimes represented as a vortex with a downward opening. It is connected to the adrenal glands. These glands reflect the human survival instinct.

To energize the base chakra:
exercising the sense of touch, attending to practical matters, gentle movement and exercise can help us re-connect with the base chakra.
*take a bath
*get a massage, or other healing touch
*walking, running, jumping or stamping the feet improves ciculation and link to planet earth
*eating, especially high protein foods. taking mineral supplements, such as zinc.
*channeling strong feelings into simple constructive activity
*strong feelings created by base chakra need to release...write feelings on paper and then symbolically burn the paper to release the energy
*dancing, drumming, music with heavy beat with keep the energy circulating and prevent build up and has been used for 100's of years to energize the base chakra and all chakras and attain spiritual states.
*be creative
*anchor or ground yourself try the warrior pose or visualize roots from your feet going deep into the earth. the purpose of meditation is to let go of excess activity in the mind, emotions and body in order to experience the world as it is!
*the solid form and orderliness of the rocks and minerals reflect the nature of the base chakra in us. dark color crystals naturally ground and center our own energies.


(wisdom from the book healing with crystals and chakra energies by sue and simon lilly)

Base Chakra, Day 1

How is today different then any other day, well today I woke up with the intention of honoring and becoming better acquainted with my base chakra. Now, mind you I am no healer, no psychic, no master or scholar of any kind on chakras. But, I had a dream and the inspiration to learn more. So, I am doing just that.

I wore a red night gown last night.
This morning I awoke late, letting myself sleep in.
I made my coffee. I drank one glass of water that I put red dye in. I put my intention on that water. I drank it. I did this 7 times, through out the day!
I had my coffee and strawberry yougart.
I meditated, using the chant LAM.
I did the warrior pose to awaken the base chakra.
I had a very messy yummy protein packed late lunch/dinner, 2 eggs, bacon, on bread with horseradish.
For snacks dried cranberry, peanuts, apple and chocolate chips. YUM.

Info about Red Foods I found helpful....

From the Healing with Crystals and Chakra Energies by Sue and Simon Lilly.

Red Foods:

Fruits-Strawberries, Raspberries, Cherries
Red Veg- Red cabbage, beetroot, radishes, onions, tomatoes, chillies, watercress, parsley
Other Red Foods- meat, Pulses, Nuts, Fish
Red Vitamins-b12 ( to absorb iron)
red minerals-iron, magnesium, zinc
other red nutrients- fatty acids
red non-foods- red wine, coffee, chocolate, sugar,


I am posting most of my receipes on these inspirations...

Also, These links/posts have been influential for me.

I can't post them on the blog, so i am literally just copy and pasting...

This is from http://healing.about.com/od/spiritualdiets/a/chakrafoods.htm

Check out the foods under each of the seven primary chakras below to help you determine how your current diet might be deficient or over-indulgent. We can do our part in helping bring balance to our chakras by eating a balanced diet.
Feeding Your Root Chakra
Grounding
•Root vegetables: carrots, potatoes, parsnips, radishes, beets, onions, garlic, etc.
•Protein-rich foods: eggs, meats, beans, tofu, soy products, peanut butter
•Spices: horseradish, hot paprika, chives, cayenne, pepper

this is from http://hubpages.com/hub/Color-Healing-of-Root-Chakra-with-Red-Rays

Healing the Base Chakra with Red Color
Color Healing is one of the most popular methods for treating the Root or Base Chakra which is located at the base of the spine and groin and is associated with adrenals, kidneys, muscles and blood. This Chakra relates to our most basic connection with life and survival instincts. This Chakra is associated with qualities like patience, stability and confidence etc. The color representing the root chakra is red. Red is the color needed when one needs energy and confidence or want to feel sexy and desirable. Some diseases and conditions associated with the Root or Base Chakra are Constipation, obesity, anemia, anorexia, back pain, diarrhea, depression, anxiety, piles, colitis, frequent urination, high blood pressure, kidney stones and impotence. A balanced and healthy root chakra can make one courageous, strong willed, confident, humanistic, strong willed, spontaneous and honest. On the other hand an imbalance in this Chakra can make one insecure, dull, over aggressive, indulging in self pity and fearful.

Color Therapists use Color Healing to treat diseases and conditions related to the different Chakras by using the color related to that Chakra or its complimentary color rays. There are a number of ways colors can be used to heal or treat the Root Chakra and correct any imbalances. Given below are some of the methods of Color Healing.

Colored Lights


Healing with colored lights can be done using healing lamps meant for this purpose which can be in the form of desk lamps, spot light etc. When treating the root Chakra is normally exposed to red colored lights for 5 to 7 minutes. In addition to the color of the chakra normally a gel of the opposite or complimentary color is used by color therapists for a shorter period of time to balance the color energies. The complementary color ray for red rays is blue.

Raw Foods and Juices


Most red colored fruits and vegetables carry the red energy and are effective in stimulating and vitalizing the Root Chakra as they are rich in Iron, Potassium etc. Some of these foods are cherries, beetroots, strawberries, plums, red apples, water melons, radishes etc.

Juices can be used to treat the Base Chakra. Juices can be made with a base of Apple Juice by adding other vegetables and fruits to it. These can be Beets and tomatoes, Beets, Strawberries, Oranges etc.

Colored Liquids


In this method red rays are introduced to water by placing water in a container with red color filter on top or red colored glass bottle and placing it in strong sunlight for about an hour. This water remains effective for 1-2 days in a refrigerator and should be consumed in the morning. Honey can also be charged with red energy in a similar manner by allowing it to absorb sun and moon light for 3 days and then stored in a refrigerator and consumed one spoon a day.

Color Visualization or Meditation

Visualizing Red color or meditating on the color is another way of treating the root chakra.

Some other ways Color Healing of Root Chakra can be done is by wearing red color gemstones jewelry, red cloths etc.

Research

I have a book called "Healing with Crystals and Chakra energies" by Sue and Simon Lilly- I love how this book looks at color as a way to heal yourself. I literally found this book, someone left it behind and I was drawn to it. I would say this book inspired me and empowered me more then anything to do this color chakra healing program.

I also purchased a book due to recomendation by Gabriel Cousens "Spiritual Nutrition: Six Foundations for Spiritual Life and the Awakening of Kundalini".


I have chakra bath salts purchased from Natalie Berthold, and sprouting love. for more info check out her website wwww.sproutinglove.com I have 1 soak for each chakra. (View this link tolearn more about these delectable salts:
http://docs.google.com/Doc?docid=0AXKEHsQGKKfuZGdncWQ5emRfMTNjZnNxdGRkOA&hl=en)

I have my food, I have my healing candle, my incense. my sage soap. I am ready!

Color Healing of Root Chakra

Color Healing of Root Chakra

Chakra Meditation Techniques

Chakras Colour Symbolism Meditation Techniques

My vision as I see it so far: Learning about Chakra's

I have always been interested in Chakra's. I noticed a long time ago that sometimes I could see color around people and animals. My guides have been placing info and messages in my lap about chakra's for months now. OK I hear you! As of late, I have felt inspired to do something that is WAY out of my skill set and knowledge base....

I want to do a chakra diet. I don't even know enough about chakra's to really explain them to someone else, let alone handle a project this deep...but I will learn along the way.

This is My vision as I see it so far.

I will dedicate one week to each chakra, where I will learn about the chakra, meditate on it, try to balance the chakra, and aim to eat food focused and charged by that same chakra. So all of my energy will go into and come from that said chakra. I will do this for each chakra. So 7 weeks.


I am thinking I will begin on Jan 15th because that is a new moon, a solar eclipse and a nice round day. The last chakra is violet, and the food connected with that is air...so I will fast, the 26-27th only two days. Ending my fast on the 28th --The full moon 2/28 with a FEAST of Rainbow foods and all 7 chakras! I will take the 28th-5th of March using the last days to eat a rainbow of foods and intigrate back into self!

Which I hope, by then my understanding will have grown, and my chakra's will be fully balanced and ready to lead me on my divine path!

Wow. I don't even know how to begin this! I found a wonderful book, by chance that teaches you about "rainbow diets". I am also finding a lot on the internet. If you have any suggestions let me know. wish me luck! I will post each day my experiences and my new widsoms gained....

My Path...

I have been on a spiritual journey since I was very young. My Mother was a Jehovah Witness disfellowshipped for standing up to an elder in the church. I am so proud of her for doing so. Even though she was not a member of the faith--to this day she still believes much of their doctrine to be true. She taught me what she knew. I guess you could say I was home schooled in my Mothers Faith, or what was left of it. I was raised with her faith in God, but without a religious core. It was hard for me. I was segregated from the Jehova Witness's in my community because I was "worldly" and segregated from the Christians because I was not like them. I did not stand for the pledge of allegiance, I did not have birthday parties, I did not sing Christmas Songs, I did not believe in Santa or Christmas at all. My Mother told me at a very young age that she believed in God, but that she was lost. She told me--"If you want to find God you have to find him on your own"
....
And this is what I have been trying to do all my life. From a young age my mother was open to me finding God. While most kids were begging to get out of Chruch, I was begging to get in. On Sundays, I would beg friends to let me go with them to their family Church. I went to Catholic Mass, Protestant Churches--of all kinds, I even went to Sinagogs. I also spent time with Wiccan Covens. I believe in Christ. I have no doubt in God. My first "miracle" was when I was 9 years old. I wrote a letter to God-two sided. I placed the letter in a private space, when I came back then next day. the letter was in the same spot, but turned over. I knew then, that God was real and miracles did happen especially when what I prayed for happened. For a long time I was angry at my Mother for her faith and what it did to my childhood. As a young teen, I brought a Christmas tree into our home--my form of rebellion. I told my Mother I needed this. She accepted my faith. She let me transform into the person of faith that I am even though it conflicted with her own. I am grateful for her acceptance.

In March of last year, I came down with a very bad case of TMJ. I could not open my mouth. My jaw had literally seized. I was scared, but I knew spiritually it was connected to my discontent--my dis-ease. I started working with healers, meditating, trying to release. Surgeons wanted to break my jaw and reset it but due to healers, and my growing practice in the journey of self....Now, my jaw is almost 100% back to normal.

I am on a spiritual journey, I always have been....but sometimes we get lost. For a long time I have been cut off. Hard, Angry...and after many years of spiritual hibernation it seems to have reawakened within me. This blog is about my journey, my faith, my re-awakening. Last year, 2009. I seemed to emerge from my cacoon. I have been intouch with my faith again. Seeing Miracles. Feeling connected. I am so grateful for my Angels-those spiritual healers and guides, who have come in to my life to help me on my divine path.